Tuesday, April 5, 2011
i m no longer using this blog. so don t bother to even take a look here. no point.
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Monday, March 28, 2011
grrrr. i m having problems thinking and planning what to do on our next monthsary.
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Tuesday, March 15, 2011
Module : Sustainable tourism
Assignment : 2000 words of essay
Due : 17 March 2011 , thursday
since young , i have always love staying at home . now , that i know how to think , and now that my house is pretty and comfy , i hate to stay at home . especially whenever i have got exams coming up and overdues project to get it all done . as the moment i m at home , all i want to do is eat sleep eat sleep . haha . like pig .
since b is working , i decided to study nearby his work place . since we will be collecting his motorbike , after he ends work . long last , get to ride , after last thursday night . yahoo . and b wants to have his dinner at 8pm . it means that i have got to get my assignment done , before 8pm . as i have to buy him food and walk to his workplace . doink . one more hour to go . would i be able to make it ? . of course . this is sakinah lah sey . hehe .
i wonder how much the repair actually cost . i hope our money is enough . ouh pls . let us have a bit of balance of money after that . just enough to date on sunday . ouh pretty , please . i don t want to be sitting at home , on b's only off day . grrrr . i will go crazy .
alright . after thursday , till my exams are over , there will be my fun and play time . nana , i know i have neglected you . but you should not have made me upset . you should not have say all those words . i m sensitive you know . furthermore , you say it , on the day where everything goes wrong at home , and between b and me . wrong day . you say it as if i m not a good friend and never ever asked you if you were alright . i did , ok . if you think that i am not a good friend , what about you . were you a good friend to me ? . you once neglected me .
ok . let s make a pact . let us both not neglected each other , besides my exam time . i will spend equally times between you and b . and you should spend equally times between me and your other friends . ok ? .
@ 6:45 PM
Monday, March 7, 2011
once upon a time , you have been a good boyfriend to me . i felt your presence every minute . you don t fail to make an effort to do things for me . those waking up calls . those often sms . those random calls . those sending and fetching . those dates . but i guess , things change . and it doesn t just change . it change so much in just a short period of time . you stop doing things for me . even the littlest and small ones . all i asked is just for you to SHOW me that you still do love and care for me . is it so hard ? . all i want is this , and not gifts .
you preferred going to youtube watching videos , rather than calling me and asked where i am , if i have eaten . even if you want to save , we still could meet up , and do something that doesn t concerns money at all . even if you doesn t want to sms and call , you can just open your facebook and msn , to chat up with me and webcam with me , rather than chatting up with other girls . even if you doesn t want to meet me up at my school , we could meet up even at jurong point or at my house . but no .
all u want is to think what is best for you and yourself . all you thinks about is you . than , what s the point of having me as a girlfriend if you doesn t want to entertain me . just to show me off to your friends .
you always compare . but you never realise . that i have did everything .
i introduce you to all my friends , even if it was just a terjumpa kind of thing . i always tell them you are my boyfriend . i rather use my money to celebrate your birthday , rather than going for my chemotherapy . i rather don t go to school , so i could get to spend time with you . coz i know you won t want to just accompany me to go eat , and than followed me to school .
at least i try and make an effort to do things . but what about you ? .
@ 8:17 PM
I HAVE A BOYFRIEND . BUT I DON T FEEL LIKE I HAVE A BOYFRIEND . ALL HE CARES IS ABOUT HIMSELF ! .
@ 7:20 PM
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
STAY FOCUS !
@ 10:28 PM
Saturday, February 26, 2011
i feel much more at ease now . i could say , i had a quiet joy .
i have created a list of priority , the things that i would like to have , and the things that i would like to do . usually , when i create a to do list , it would be successful . my top priority right now is my school and driving license , which all are to be done before august . and i m going to get iphone4 before may . yahoo . i m currently saving to get a car before my birthday next year .
i m going to re-paint my room . i m glad that the things that i do not need , i already gave some to nana , and some to kak ayu . but there s still few more things , that i need to pass to them . my sis is going to move . move to the other side of the room . and this master bedroom is mine and b . i m so happy . i m thinking of putting a big photoframe of my family , inclusive of b too , and hang it on the wall on top of my bed .
b s bdae present is settled , too . only waiting for few days before , to go to market and cook , for the picnic . that devil haven t been giving my tent back . damn it . argh . i hate him . haha . i hate his bitch too .
i m making a second cup of mocha , now . delicious . the coffee bean chocolate powder , seriously make miracle , and mix well , with almost everything . maybe , i should try and make chocolate ice blended , in the late afternoon .
thank you mother , for everything . i m glad that you are not like any other mother . i love you .
@ 11:52 AM
Monday, February 21, 2011
i find myself stupid . for the last two years , i have enrolled my driving license . enrolled it even before my riding license . but i keep taking my own sweet stupid time , hence , have not passed it yet . CB . so i have wasted quite a lot of money . the money for PDL , 25 bucks , and the monthly deduction too , although it s just 10 bucks . but still , i have wasted quite a lot of money . since boyfriend was sick , i skipped school , to make sure he s alright . and since we will be paying our monthly installment , we decided to eat at bukit batok , our favourite place . scrumptious food . so since it s on the way , i renew my PDL too . i find BBDC website getting more and more stupid . what sey . don t tell me for this whole year , only two dates are available to book for prac . how the hell am i going to get it done and over with before raya . raya is in august . argh . it s alright . even if it takes me to wake up early in the morning , i will even do it . this is my top priority now .
b have been pampered me this few days , seriously . ouh thank god . even though , the communication between us is not so good like it used to be . but at least things are getting a bit better . i will give it some time , so that things could be much more better , like it used too .
thank you for the champs carebear , and the 6 carebear keychains . grrr . i didn t know that carebears have grams . it s a for sure , i got to get the elephant carebear . so extremely cute .
i m going to get a new modem later on , when i meet nana . i m tired of sharing it with my selfish sister . aku yang beli , dia yang pakai . ewah2 . sekarang , modem sort2 . asyik lost internet connection .
planning for b s bdae is getting very well . and i hope it will goes well too on his bdae . he wanted a blue crayfish so much . i will try to get it , without borrowing money . as i will spend quite a lot of money , on the food itself . obviously lah . i m not just whipping up a simple dish .
yes . i met zima yesterday . i m glad and happy for her , that things is going well for her in her life . careeer , relationships and financially . will plan a day to meet her and iqa up next week . she told me , i m getting prettier . hehe . even if it s not true , it means a lot to me . haha . as b suddenly praised me too .
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Thursday, February 17, 2011
i don t wish to open my mind , heart to anyone else , other than nana . as i don t wish to . she alone , knows everything about me , is enough . we don t met up often , as she s busy with work , and i m busy with school and work . but we did talk a lot yesterday . haha . and talking to her , makes me think a lot . for one thing , that is important to me , is being grateful and treasure the moments that you had , and appreciate little or big things someone did for you .
i learnt something new from her . there s a chinese beliefs . which says that , a perfect match , is when the other is three years older than you and 12cm taller than you . i wonder if it s really true . as b is one year younger than me , and obviously only few cm tall than me , and not 12cm , definitely .
every other time when we fought . we kiss , we make out , and we make up .
this time , it s a serious matter . i m not taking anything lightly . meaning , no more chances .
finally , i have the courage to asked for the break up , although my heart don t actually wants the break up . but i guess , it s best for both you and me , my dear . i knew , you too doesn t want it . that s why you hang up the phone , and try to come to my house asap . like all those other times when we fought , we kiss , we make out , and we make up .
this time , i mean what i say . no more chances .
you treat me good today , just like those days .
we ate at ananas cafe . we went to school together . you msg me often . those random phone calls . i hope you will really change for the better this time . and forever . not for a short period of time .
boy , you mean a lot to me . so please , do show me , that i mean a lot to you , if you still want this relationship to go on . little things matters a lot to me .
love you .
@ 8:10 PM
Saturday, February 12, 2011
boyfriend bought me an ipod shuffle . hehe . since i lost my ipod shuffle last year . actually , i wanted to get myself an ipod classic next month . but since b got me an ipod shuffle , i could buy myself iphone 4 soon . thank you b . it have been quite some time since u last get me a present .
b s bdae is coming . in a month time . and i am at a loss of what to get for him . b wanted a sony vaio laptop . and i told b , he have to wait for a long time , if he wanted a laptop from me . so , i told b , that if he wanted a gift from me , he have to decide what he wants before midnight today . it s not that i am not sincere in buying him a gift . but i don t want to waste my time and money , getting him something that he s rarely going to used and will not find it useful at all . just like those monthly gift that i gave to him . b has a bad habit . we fight , he throw the recent gift away . what a waste .
it have been such a long time , we last went out together . b has become such a workaholic this few months . in the end of the month , still he always have no money . hais . than work so hard for what ? . bwek . but i m glad he is back in his track , saving again . though , recently . so , i m seriously going to make b bring me out tomorrow .
and b s going to bring me out tomorrow . no plan yet . but i had this sudden crave to eat mee goreng tom yum at changi village . and sticky chewy candy at clarke quay . and fried mars bar from british takeaway . hehe . can i have it all tomorrow ? . hehe . last time , i could have it all . but now , no no no .
b have been good to me this few days . after the recent fought that we had . a big one indeed . pity my hands , stomach and neck from getting hurt yet again . b have been msging and calling me often . but i really wish , things will be just how it used to be . maybe it will , but it takes a long time . or maybe , it won t . i myself am not sure . it s alright . i m tired of hoping and dreaming so much . let s just wait and see .
and i can t wait to repaint my bedroom walls again . yeah . 2010 , it is yellow and orange . maybe 2011 will be pink and white . hehe . i m still deciding . what s up with me , and all those pinky colours this days . i m not sure either . maybe , it s just is my colours this days . and i ve got to set a date to paint . last year , it took three days . could i get it complete within a day and a half . yes . if i ve got a lot of people . i will get b to paint of course . and maybe , with his best friends to help too .
anyway , i ve got quite a lot of valentines present this year . a diamond ring , chocolate powder from coffee bean , zoo hp straps , red rose , frey dark chocolates . hehe . all this not from b . b got all jealous and emo when he saw all this . but still , what i love best is , the ipod shuffle with engraving and with lots of love from b . hehe . i wonder if the iphone4 , i could get it with engraving too . i could write my name . hehe .
got to have an early night . going to be along day tomorrow . hope everything goes well tomorrow . good fun and no fight . can b ? .
@ 11:38 PM